1. Letting go of a person you've just learned to love
2. Reminiscing the good times you shared together
3. Shielding your heart to love somebody 4. Trying to hide what you really feel
5. Trying to hide the tears that involuntarily fall from your eyes
6. Loving a person too much
7. Giving up someone you never thought of giving up
8. Having the right love at the wrong time
9. Taking the risk to fall in love again
10. Hiding your relationship from someone else
11. Controlling your feelings to avoid hurting a friend
12. Thinking of him/her every waking and sleeping moment knowing all the while that he/she never
even thinks a single thought of you...
13. Letting go, because everytime you see the person, you only fall deeper
14. Holding back only to find out when it's too late, you both felt the same way, but were only
scared to lose each other so much that you didn't let the feelings out
15. Falling in love with someone you didn't mean to fall in love with
16. Finding the perfect guy/girl...with only one problem--- he/she doesn't love you...the way you want him/her to...
17. Helping the one you love "court" your friend / helping your friend "court" the one you love
18. Seeing the one you love crying for someone else
19. Waiting also hurts like hell
20. Having to hear "... I've met someone"
21. Agreeing to his/her wish to 'just be friends'.
22. Asking his/her freedom back because 'he'd/she'd be happier with him/her'
23. Asking you to 'forget that everything happened' and be 'normal' friends again.
24. Hearing that you're treated as a little bro/sis (ouch!)
25. Sharing his/her future plans for the guy/girl with you.
26. You stopped being friends because his gf/her bf asked him/her to.
27. Being denied in front of people.
28. Telling you lies where he'd/she'd been when actually, he/she was with a 'new friend' or an 'old flame' (whew!)
29. He/she told you he'd/she'd be leaving you to return to his/her ex? the one he/she left for you!
30. Breaking someone's heart
31 .Fighting for that one thing that would make you happy that is, holding on to a person who can
not guarantee you his/her commitment unless he/she fix himself/herself...then, you are left
hanging for the moment...then he/she says, time will tell... ang labo lang niya...but you still decided
to hope in him/her and trust him/her
32. Pretending you're OK when inside you're dying...
33. Pretending to be strong.... and recognizing your weakness
34. Lying in bed each night, thinking of that special person you can never have...
35. Being with someone you can't actually love...
36. Pretending you don't love a person whom you actually love...
37. Being in love...
38. Letting go even if you really don't want to... having no right to say you are hurting because it was your decision
39. Seeing the person you love hurt because of you... and not being able to help that person...
40. Having the courage to say "I LOVE YOU" to the person you love and finding out afterwards that
things will never be the same again when he/she doesn't treat you with the same closeness as before
41. Having to face the fact that someone is capable of completely destroying the wall that you
have set for yourself, leaving you weak and vulnerable
42. Admitting that you love someone despite his/her imperfections
43. Finding out that the more you try to hate him/her, the more you end up loving him/her,
perhaps even more than before
44. Realizing how stupid your mistakes were that led to your break-up.
45. The thought that this guy/girl, used to really love you and you loved him/her as well but you
didn't give enough and he/she gave up on you
46. Sharing the one you love with SOMEBODY else....."
47. Making a promise....and realizing that when the time has come for that promise to be
delivered....the commitment is no longer there...
48. Violating your parents' rules for that someone that you love.
49. Leaving your long-time friends because the one you love cannot accept them.
50. The hardest thing about love- BELIEVING IT
50 HURTING experiences..
Mags Scared of What?
Anyway, a few cup of coffee, i "went outside myself" again and started thinking: What am I afraid of? What makes me terrified?
What about you? What scares you? You think maybe, a mortician or a forensic photographer is afraid of death, or of dying?
I don't think so. I've thought about it and if you think carefully, fear of anything can and may be seductive. Try and find out what scares you... eventually, you're going to realize that you're trying to find out more and more about it...-get inside death, what makes a dead body dead. what makes a monster, a monster.
Then you go as close to the fear as you can. You go as close to the monster. You know it. You claim it. You name it. You make it real. Then finally, you take it in.
{...when you love someone, they leave, when you don't love them, they leave as well, so the choice is not between loving and losing, but between loving and not loving..}
What am I afraid of?
I fall in love often and deeply.
To the person beckons me, be there for me.. just for me, and always there, wanting to protect me, wanting to shield me, wanting to take me away, wanting me.
intends to teach me to take in happiness and love.
Now that's scary... =(
Days With You
there were days when I was happy
having you as my one and only
everything was bright, clear and fine
as if i was on a cloud nine...
there were days when i was satisfied
keeping you here by my side
things seems forever at their best
like red sunsets over the west...
there were days when i frowned
feeling that you let me down
some things just cannot be pleased to acquire
and with that i blazed into fire...
there were days when i was lonely
realizing that we are walking separately
a hold on the hand would be nice
but we always ended up on a sour compromise...
there were days when i hated my reflection
looking at myself in full abomination
i just cannot take to see me
being in constant agony..
there were days when i was in confusion
asking why was i left out on that certain situation
when all i did was loving
and for you i almost did everything...
there were days when i felt unjustified
by those people who never considered my side
it always takes two to tango
but why did they only judge me so????
and there were days when i was tired of you
that's why i ended up saying: "WE'RE THROUGH"...
I was waiting for you to change for good..
but, instead, for me, you were so rude...
so many days had passed by
time really is swift to fly
days with you were painful yet fun
and a very unforgettable one....
now, i still spend my days with you
shared you with a friendship that is so true
still, i want you to change
and i'll be watching you from a range....
